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11-20-08

7:55pm

Heidy is: reviewing for her first quiz in Calculus.

I have been reviewing for this quiz since last week pa. Damn. I never liked graphing. But now I feel that I am mastering it already. Thank you Lord! I just hope I will get a 1.0 grade in this first quiz. I should. After all the efforts I have put in this quiz.

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11-21-08

8:15pm

Heidy is: very very tired.

Just got home. Traffic. Darn. Basketball was tiring, and the ball was very very dirty, and so am I right now. I want to bathe, but I'm so tired. It might be bad for my body.

Our quiz in Calculus was easy! Hmmm, I expect a score of 95 in that quiz. I hope I'd get higher.

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Dear Hevers...

I miss you, guys! :(
I was not able to sleep well last night. I really miss you na! It's kinda weird 'cause I was texting Eric last night, and I am more often talking to Deb nowadays than before. But then, I missed you guys more because of that. Maybe because talking to you over the phone and through text aren't enough ways to keep things just like before. Sheesh, I miss those times.

Now we're more matured. We grow as individuals. Our lives get more complicated. We get busier in dealing with our stuffs. We talk less.

I belong to a clique in UST. You might hear me often talk about their funny jokes and stories. You may think that I am very happy with them. Well, I am happy, but the feeling isn't even half of what I feel when I am with you. I know you fully;I know them not even half of who they truly are. When I'm with them, I realize that it's only the hevers who can accept me fully and wholeheartedly for who I truly am.

You're the only people who I can text any time about anything that I want to say. You're the only ones who I can say my feelings without the fear of getting judged. The only shoulders I can cry on. I'm most comfortable when with you, hevers. These things never changed. It never will. I'll grow older and have a life of my own, but you will remain my bestest friends.

And you know what's weirder?
I miss you, but I am happy that I miss you. Know why? 'Cause I miss you because I love you, and I am happy because we're still together after all these years. I miss you 'cause we're apart, but we are still best friends. That's why I am happy. After six years, we are still together, alive, happy and kicking!

I'll always be here for you, and you know that. I'm just a call or text away. Don't mind if I'm busy or not. You're much important than calculus. :)
I love you hevers!


Love,

heidy

First Week 202

Unlike the past firstdays of my college life, my first day this sem was not exciting. Or should I say that I didn't feel excited about going to school. I just didn't feel it since we were going back to UST weekly for all this school stuffs. I didn't miss the school because of that. Tsk.

First day was dull. Our first subject is CompLab, and surely, there is no lab on the first week so we just sat on the floor near the lab hoping for someone to let us in. But there came no one. We just went to McDonalds and ate brunch. We have a double period Calculus, and surprise, surprise! Our prof is Sir Rambongga! Gosh, he's been my prof for 3 semesters already. But eventhough, he still gives me the creeps and frights. I dunno. Nakakaba pa din e.

The first day is like heaven compared to the next day. We've met our physics prof. She's Mam Roque. And I've heard she's got a very high teaching standards. We're never gonna sail Physics smoothly, this time. Errr. There are also rumors that our CompLec prof is Angelo Morsiquillo. Waaaaaa. COMBO! RAMBONGGA-ROQUE-MORSIQUILLO. The heck. Sir Rambongga's okay. He's been our professor for the third time, and personally, I've been able to cope with his teaching style. I don't know Mam Roque and Sir Morsiquillo but a lot of students do not like them.

Well, I don't care about these hear-says. I don't care about the others' feed backs. I'm different from them. My daddy always says that professors have nothing to do with your failure. It's always up to me. I always have a choice.

So what if Sir Morsi talks like a robot at mahina boses niya? He's surely not mute. If I will just intently listen to what he discusses, I'm sure I will learn something from him. So what if Mam Roque is strict on checking papers? Then I'll study harder!

I admit that I didn't give my very best last semester. I was always staying at school til afternoon. I don't answer all our assignments in Physics. I don't study our lessons at night. I just study the night before the quiz. I don't read the lessons ahead of time. I take my minor subjects for granted.

But now, I'm gonna be different. I'll take all my subjects seriously. Now I've realized the importance of my minor subjects. I won't take any subject for granted. I'll listen intently! I'll study if I have time!

I don't care who the professor is. Tao lang din sila. Wala akong pakialam sa sinasabi ng iba. Basta ako mag-aaral! Tapos! Hindi ako ipapasa ng pagrereklamo at pag-iinarte ko. Tama na ang reklamo. Hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon, yung mabait at gusto kong professor ang mapupunta sa amin. Hindi naman ibibigay sa amin yung mga professor na yun kung hindi namin kaya.

Last night, I prayed. I surrendered everything to the Lord. I just prayed na bahala na si Lord kung sino ang ibibigay niyang professors sa amin. I fully trust Him that He will give what's best for us. Anyway, He never promised our life to be a bed of roses. But He promised that He will be with us all the way. So just trust Him!

"Just do your best, and let God do the rest."

Nov.1 mumblings

All Saints' Day is just an ordinary day for our family. We don't do what most of the people do. We just visit the cemetery, have a little get together, eat lots of foods, and then we'll go home. No more traditions or rituals, since we're not Catholics.

Well, November 1 is a little bit different for me.

• I had a very scary dream last night. (Seems that my dream is going with what's in. Hehe)
• The moment I rose from my bed, my monthly period came. T'was painful. :(

• At last, I finally watched Pursuit of Happyness! I decided to watch it a while ago. Siztur was right. The movie was depressing. It was a sad movie after all. Will Smith did a very great job in making the audience capture the character's emotions. He is really a very brilliant actor. Love him! :D

• I didn't get to eat much since I have no appetite having this red monthly visit.

• Dang dysmenorhea! (I think I spelled it wrongly.) My body was twitching all over this afternoon! I was almost into tears because of the pain. Huhu. Thanks to my Lola she took care of me.
• After resting, we dropped by the cemetery to eat with and visit my alive relatives. It's nice to meet them all again.

I am now feeling the urge to watch more movies. How stupid of me. I've been so lazy to watch anything for the whole sembreak until now that I've only got 2days before classes resume. Tsssk. Okay I may watch another Will Smith's or Adam Sandler's tonight before I go to sleep. Hmm how about "Longest Yard"? I've heard it's great.

Anyway. I miss my long hair.

I miss the days that my hair is still silky straight, and is halfway to my waist. I'm really malikot when it comes to my hair. Whenever I feel bored about myself, all I want to do is get a haircut. Haha. I already had 3 haircuts since summer 2008. Hehe. But I'm already trying to control my impulse since I want my hair to be long again. I said to myself that I won't get a haircut till my birthday comes. That's the only time that I'll get a trim. Trim only. Hehe. :P

extra: Friendster rants.
I feel bad about Friendster. I hate it. It's so lame and it's cheap. I mean, all you can do there is post pictures and comments. The bulletin board has lost its purpose. It now serves as an extension for narcissism of the authors. A lot of the bulletins there are just surveys, and as far as I've noticed it's just being used as "parinig" or "pangyabang". And if you're fishing for compliments, all you have to do is post a pretty picture of yourself and post a bulletin so that you can get people's attention. Yeah I know, it sucks. I already canceled it. Yes.

I finally waved 'buh-bye' to my oldest social network account. That account had been there for 4 years already. It made me more for 4 long years"usisera". Tsk. But I turned my back on it already. Friendster is so highscool. I need to grow up. I should quit viewing profiles of other people and get news about them through reading comments given to them. I feel so gossipy when I read the comments that are never mine --though it's publicly posted for everybody's gossip pleasures. Sa wakas. Buhbye Friendster.