SOMEDAY.

My dad bought a flat screen LCD a while ago. I was shocked when I saw it. He'd been persuading my mom to buy one, but my mom keeps on procrastinating by saying "next year nalang.." . I'm on her side, actually. That purchase didn't strike me to be anyhow important to us. It's just a waste of money. A luxury. Extravagance.

As if we could stop my dad from that.

I don't know what made me feel like this. My dad rarely buys something for himself. It's been ages since he last bought a shirt, and he bought his phone when I was still 3rd year high school. It is just fair for him to be allowed to buy something that he likes. But then, I wonder why I am not happy about it. Maybe I am not comfortable to see it in our living room, because it looks so grand and so off. It's expensive. It pains me to see it. You may wonder why...

I'm never a grand spender. I'm never the type of person who dreams of being filthy rich one day. As far as I could remember, I never said to myself the words "Paglaki ko, gusto kong maging kasing yaman nila.." Whenever I dream of myself as a rich and successful person, I see myself giving away my riches to the my needy loved ones and to the church. Maybe you'd tell that I'm a hypocrite, but I am just being honest with how I define "success" and "riches". I am happy with my life now. We are well-off and happy. I am contented with what the blessings that God gives to my family. Maybe that's the reason why I feel uncomfortable with these expensive things. I'd rather live simply.

But then, I am thankful. Honestly, I am much more thankful that God gave me a contented heart than the fact that our family is again being blessed. However, both ways, I am thankful. Very very much thankful. Not all people has this contented and happy heart of mine. It's a blessing from God.

One day, when it's the right time for me to move out and start a life of my own, I'd search for my own success and build my own riches. That time, my parents won't bother how I spend my money or to whom I give it to. As for me, I'd give my riches to help the church and to help my relatives. I have never known a better recipient than them. They've taught me everything I have to learn about having a humble life guided by Christ. Seeing them makes me feel happy and grateful with the life that I have. Not because they are struggling with life, but because they live with what they have happily as a rich person does. Why? Because they have Jesus in their hearts.

They've been Christ's instrument to help me.

One day, it's going to be my turn.

Happy Christmas!

Okay, first things first. I admit it, we're not the happiest/jolliest family during Christmas. I don't mean that we're not happy that it's Christmas, it's just that we are not the kind'a family you see on tv. Hehe. But really we're happy.

We celebrated and bonded on December 24, since we do not want to go with the Christmas mania during the day perse. That happened to us last Christmas '06 in moa. Dang, we were squeezed tah death. So we decided now to bond a day earlier. We spent our day in Alabang, Festival Mall then to my Aunt's place in Citta. It was fun to see my cousins. Some of them I have not seen for two years. I missed them! And then we set up the things we bought till 12am, Christmas day. Hehe.


I admit, our celebration is not that fun anymore since my lola isn't here in the country. We usually spend our Christmas day in her house because all her sons and daughters and apos go there to have a reunion. Oh well. Too bad her citizenship whatev asked her to stay for long in US.:(

Here in our compound, Christmas is always a very simple and humble. After all, it's not the day that matters, it's the spirit of Christmas. As our pastor says, everyday should be Christmas day. Coz everyday, till forever, we have the gift that God gave us the moment He send Lord Jesus Christ in this world. :)

God bless you.
Merry Christmas.

H.

Paskuhan '08

UNEXPECTED. A BLAST.

I wasn't really planning to go to Paskuhan since I know that my parents won't allow me anyway. But then, on the day of the celebration, my classmates urged me to ask permission. Try lang naman daw. So I texted my mom. I was surprised that she allowed me. By 12pm, I went home to rest, drop my things then change clothes. Another problem came up. My daddy told me that if I'm not gonna be home by 12am, he won't allow me to go. What the. Ghel was scheduled to be picked up by 12am. How am I supposed to be home by 12am too? Argh. I almost lost hope that time. :'( I forwared Tita Gina's text, assuring my parents not to worry and all that, to him. And you know what? Pinayagan ako!! Waaaaaah. Once in a lifetime to.

I left home by 5pm. While I was stuck in traffic in Morayta, I heard when the fireworks started and ended. Waaa. :'( The fireworks display was just short. 10minutes? Unlike last year when the display lasted for 30 minutes. Ang mahal!

Some kwentos:

• Super daming tao! Paskuhan is really a famous celebration. It's like the Christmas Party of the whole UST community, and even for the outsiders.
  
• I saw Carlo, with Tin, and Joshua.
  
• Daming cute boys! Taga UST ba sila??
  
• Globe network is at its busiest during Paskuhan. I received 7-pm-sent messages by 11pm. Four hours late. Tsk. It's even hard to send messages. I can't even call.
  
• UST looked better last Paskuhan. The lights were better last year. But the Paskuhan this year is so much better!
• The Christmas tree is so so so pretty. :)

• Free foooooods!
• Snakersss were complete that night. Yihee.
• 
• The bands who rocked the night: Charcoal gray (I dunno this one), Join the Club(damn, wag na sila mag-live!, and BAMBOO(the best!!!!)

Grabe talaga si Bamboo! That was the first time I've watched him L-I-V-E. Ira Cruz is very handsome, Bamboo is very cool, and the drummer is so brilliant. They are really one of a kind!
A lot of bands perform differently when live and usually iba na ang boses ng vocalist kasi ineedit naman lagi pag nasa cd, pero iba yung Bamboo!!! Grabe! Kung ano ung boses ni Bamboo sa cd, ganon din pag live! And yung tugtugan, grabe ang galing nila talaga! And you know what's the best part? They even performed Rivermaya songs! 214, Elisi, and Awit ng Kabataan. Galing! They performed more or less 10 songs. One thing's for sure, super mahal nun. And I don't want to estimate how much that had costed us. Tuition namin yun e. Hehehe. Pero super sulit naman talaga! Bamboo forever na. ♥

Buti nalang nakapunta ako. :)

I met Tita Gina at 11:20, and ofcourse, Ghel was 40 minutes late. Tsk.

Though our quiz2 in Physics was devastating ='(, I will forget that for a while. It's time to party! Hehe. Happy Holidays. :)



P.S. Deeeb I'm so sorry talaga. I feel so guilty e. Kaso Paskuhan is just once a year, and it's only once in a lifetime that I could be allowed in such gatherings. Enjoy yer vacation in Macau :)

Where art thou?

Last December 06, 2008, I attended Tin's debut celebration. I saw most of my high school friends there. Well, they've grown up. We all did. And they are smoking. Most of them, really.

It's been two years since we all parted our ways. I have been keeping tabs on them, see what's new with my school mates. Sadly, what I have heard are news about my former schoolmate having given birth, some who are just about to have a family of their own, guys who have been hopping from school to school, and classmates drowned with vices.

What the hey. What happened to them? What happened to all the education our teachers had put up on us? What's just happened to the "most-behaved batch of Statefields School"?

I am not trying to sound like I haven't done anything wrong in my life, but these things are not normal to just have happened within the span of two years. Could two years be that long for a person to forget his twelve years of education and character building? Are bad influences really that bad?

What happened? :'(

Randommm

11-27-08
Heidy is: currently scanning notes in Physics for Jowie, and studying for Physics.

Okay. It's our first quiz in Physics 202 tomorrow. Waaaah. I'm nervous. Among all my course subjects last sem, it was Physics that I had the hardest time dealing with. It's also in Physics that I got my first ever failed quiz in college. The heck. I struggled really hard for that 2.0 grade last sem.
That's why this quiz tomorrow is very important for me. I really listened attentively every discussion and took all the homeworks seriously. Super effort. Hehe.

Gonna update soon, after the quiz. Brb. :)
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12-03-08
Heidy is: happy!

I am so happy with my Physics quiz! It is definitely a good start! 94/100! Thank you Lord! This will definitely boost my confidence in Physics. Yah know, I found Physics as my hardest subject last semester. HopefullyI won't find it that hard again this sem. Praise God!
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12-05-08
Heidy is: tired.

Just got home from school. But the trip was faster than last week. I took the van 'stead of the bus. It was so much faster.

We got our Calculus quiz results. The long wait is over. Praise God! 94/100. Again. Hehe. I think 94 is my number this week. Hehe. I think I am the highest. I dunno. All I care about is my score. It was high. Thank you Lord!

Gotta go and have some rest. I lack a lot of hours of sleep this week though I wasn't busy. Why? Hehe, I was so engrossed in spending my time relaxing and reading books. Waking up with lack of sleep due to something recreational is so much better than waking up after studying for an upcoming quiz. It feels so much better. But I'm still human, I still need tah sleep. Edward, I told you to bite me soon! Hahaha. :P

12-07-08
I think I look better when my skin is tanned. Hmmm. Watcha think? I prefer it than being fair-skinned. I look more.. alive. Hehe.


now I'm a tan :)
Whoa, Manny Pacquiao won. I didn't expect it. The whole world didn't expect it. Oh well, maybe the pretty Golden Boy wasn't able to keep up with Pacman's speed. I didn't like the fight, though. It was just all for Manny. It wasn't action-packed, like what everybody's been expecting from a "dream match". Whatever, at least the Philippines won.

Tomorrow is a holiday and it's no use for me. :|
I'll just go for a haircut then study for Calculus.
I still haven't read 'The Notebook'. I kinda lost my reading mojo. :|

Phew. So much for these random stuffs. I've got something sensible to write later. Abangan. Hehe.