I am HD

I'm going through a hard time at the moment. There are times that all I can do is cry, and those times are really often. I don't know what to do. I'm scared. People might see me as one tough person, but there are some fragile points in my life and this is one of them. It's one thing that I can't even say to anyone.

For months, I go home, broken and weak, and all I can do is cry. I am awake in the middle of the night, thinking about it, seeing that all I can do is pray. I am very weak right now. I am alone in this.

There are a lot of times that I tend to to forget Him, forget His promise, forget His power. I failed and lost my faith. That's how fragile I am right now. But if I'm going to lose my faith on Him, who else can I depend on? Who else can I believe? People have already failed me.

So I give up.
I give up on going through this alone and not letting God help me.
I surrender.
I surrender everything to Him.
I am crying.
I am crying out to Jesus.
He'll never leave me on this. I trust Him.
Right now in this battle, He's all I've got... He's all I've got... I surrender.

You gave Your life for me. By Your sacrifice, I am saved. THANK YOU LORD. For the life, for the love, for everything. I will praise You forever.

"When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less"

Ghel's family invited Jei and I for an overnight stay in La Virginia Resort in Lipa, Batangas last week. I was really skeptical if my parents will allow me there. I guess they considered the fact that I'm not just going with some friends, but with Ghel's family too so they allowed me. It was my first overnight plus out-of-town swimming experience. As in first! Haha.

The place is really beautiful!!! We spent more time taking pictures with the scenery rather than swimming. Haha. Look at our pictures, parang napilitan lang kami magswimming. Haha.

Then we went to Mt. Malarayat Golf and Country Club (Tita Gina's officemate toured us there) which is really classy and beautiful! Orchard, panis!! Haha. Ganda talaga. Then Tita's officemate took us in their Casa de Segunda. The moment we saw the ancient house, I was just kidding when I said that we're off for an educational trip, but it turned out that I was true. The house was the house of Segunda Katigbak, Rizal's first love. Shocking, right.

I am so proud of my shots. They are really m-shots! Haha. Ghel and Jei had trouble choosing what pictures to upload in their Facebook and Friendster accounts, coz you know, my shots are really beautiful. Hahaha. Kidding.

Lezz do thiz again! ;) 

At last. They changed the system of our portal so it took me forever to get the email verification code so that I can log back to the portal and get a screen shot of my grades. Tsk. My grades aren't bad. My semestral average is 1.54. It's a bit higher than last sem (last sem's is 1.59). Praise God! :)