When you notice that everybody's moving on with their lives and you feel that you don't?

Because I do. I thought I'm all over this but I am not. It gets worse and worse especially now that I don't even have a family to go home to. Now that all I go home to is a dark, empty small room and everyone around me gets along with their lives so well. They play till midnight, spend time with their close friends, and I am there laying in my bunk all alone. It's not that they do not invite me to go out. I just don't like to because I will just feel left out. I will just feel that they invited me out of pity because I have no one. I don't even keep in touch with my best friends because I feel so lonely after talking to them. It's crazy. It's like I am the one shutting myself out from other people.

I am surrounded by people. But I feel so alone. And I hate the fact that I am embracing it because I know that I haven't got any choice but to do so. And it feels like shit.