It is eighteen days before I turn 19. So before I start my last year of being reckless, free and angsty, I made a sort of to-do-list that I want to accomplish during the last year of my teenage life. 

1. Learn how to drive. 

2. Go on a sleepover. 

3. Or host a sleepover here at home. 

4. Learn how to make myself look presentable.

5. Grow my long hair back. 

6. Watch a 3D movie in IMAX

7. Get a full body massage.

8. Eat at Hotshots!!! 

9. Experience an out-of-town trip with friends.

10. ________________ 

  

And the list goes on.

Frankly, my teenage life is very dull compared to others. I don't go to clubs, I don't drink, smoke, or party. I don't conform to the kind of fun that others enjoy. Probably it's because my parents had been very strict on me when I was younger that's why I just settled for what I have and what they could approve of. But frankly, I am tired of being dull. I am tired of my plain and boring life. Once in a while, I want to feel free and have genuine and wholesome fun. I want to know what I will be losing in being young and carefree so that I will be able to savor every moment of being one. I want to explore and experience what the world has to offer.

I want to live.