The Best Friends

June 16, 2003. 

My first day in high school at Statefields School. I had no idea that the girl "whiter than me", who I often talked to during assemblies and breaks, and the boy who looked like Harry Potter will become my bestfriends. Back then I had no idea that I will meet two of the most important people in my life. 

Sure, we were close. I talked to both of them on the phone, like every night. But I was young and I don't know who's the proper person to call a "bestfriend". The school kept on shuffling the sections every year so I got close to new faces; most of them had the "bestfriend potential".  But I started to acknowledge that "fate" had gotten in our lives and made the three of us inseparable during our last year in school. I realized that they were the first two people that I tell stories to. They were the ones I seek out help from. That was the time I realized that Debbie and Eric had become very important to me. 

It got different when we went to college. Sure, the time we talked and meet lessened. Honestly it gets more and more seldom as years pass by. The last time we got together was last February(?) and I have no idea what's Eric been up to because that guy hasn't been keeping in touch! At least Deb is one chat/text away. 

But I guess this happens to all friends. We can't always make time to get together. We all have our issues to handle and our lives just can't meet halfway. One thing I learned with this friendship is overcoming separation. That even though I don't get to see or talk to them, I trust that I still got my best friends. We've come so far. Almost eight years of friendship isn't something easy especially when you've started it when you're all young, immature and childish (believe me I tried it with others).

I keep thanking God for my hevers. He gave me two people who sticked to me no matter what happened to my life. I screwed up everything yet they're still with me. They never rejected me. Their understanding is what I really needed more than anything else, more than a get together at Starbucks or a movie bonding together. And they gave it to me. 

Unhappy self

“It’s a common belief that positive thinking leads to a happier, healthier life. As children we are told to smile, be cheerful and put on a happy face. As adults we are told to look on the bright side, to make lemonade and see glasses as half full. Sometimes reality can get in the way of our ability to act the happy part though. Your hope can fail, boyfriends can cheat, friends can disappoint… In these moments, when you just want to get real, drop the act, and be your true scared unhappy self.”

If Heidy were ...

if Heidy were a month, she'd be February. She's a proud Aquarius, always beaming whenever she finds out that she shares birth month with someone.

if Heidy were a day, she'd be Saturday. For some reasons, everything seems to be lite during Saturdays; be it schoolworks or other stuff.

if Heidy were a time, she'd be 9PM. It's the time when her mind is most awake yet relaxed.

if Heidy were a direction, she'd be east. She always looks forward to a new beginning. A better start. 

if Heidy were a season, she'd be spring. But she won't say no for a bit of Christmas snow. 

if Heidy were a song, she'd be Better Together by Jack Johnson and Kiss the Rain by Yiruma.

if Heidy were a place, she'd be a second-story bedroom with a window overlooking a rice field.

if Heidy were a TV series character, she'd be Serena van der Woodsen and Robin Scherbatsky. Like Serena, she doesn't have an outstanding personality to boot nor does she have her bestfriend's ability to start a banter with people. She's a Robin when it comes to commitment and feeling indifferent towards kids and mushy stuffs. 

if Heidy were an emotion, she'd be blank.