I think I am this close to snapping. There's always something that gets wrong. I don't know. I told myself that I am not gonna settle to mediocrity. I don't want to be average in the only thing I am good at: studies. It is really painful because that's one of the most important things that I've been holding on to ever since the day that my daddy walked me on my first day to school and told me to aim for the "very-good star". Good grades are the only thing that I will always be proud of. One of the sure things to come out of hard work. But now, good grades are becoming hard to get. Really hard to get. Oh geez I'm starting to cry. 

But I'm never gonna give up. You might hear me say that I am already tired of these frustrating things, or you heard me say that I am tinatamad, but I'd rather shoot my face than say that I give up. I will never give up. That's the losing end, and I'm not gonna go that far. Give up my ass.