I just wish I have something in life that I am really really passionate about right now. Because for the longest time, I have lost my mojo on the things I used to love.

I don't know when this started, but I knew I had lost my spunk. I wasn't not even that spunky to begin with, but the little spunk and enthusiasm that I have was drained. I don't know if it shows, but I really felt the loss. I alloted a part of my sembreak to meeting with my old friends thinking that it will help rekindle my old self but I was wrong. I was always weighing the words that I would say to them; thinking twice about what I would do next. I was uncomfortable not with them but with the missing heart in my sleeve. Lord give me back my interpersonal skills, puhlease? 

The emptiness really bothers me. That's why I'm looking for something that bring back the mojo in me. I tried drawing (meh. So high school), movies (I don't have good movies to watch), books (Charlie St.Cloud left unopened) and writing (don't have the energy to muster). Bottom line: nawawalan na ko ng gana. 

It's saddening. I thought school break is a time to rebuild myself. But a sad, empty life reflected on me and it just toppled me down.