This song always gets to the core of my feelings whenever I feel sad in Korea. Always.
"I know it's a cornball thing, but love is passion. Obsession. Someone you can't live without. I say fall head over heels. Find someone you can love like crazy, and who'll love you the same way back. How do you you find 'em? Well, you forget your head and you listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Because the truth is, honey, there's no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love, well, you haven't lived a life at all. But you have to try, because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived."
-- Meet Joe Black, 1998
For the past three months I have been continuously thriving and adjusting to the new way of life, trying to make new friends and keeping up with the lifestyle. Yes, there are a lot of good sides but I will be a hypocrite to say that there was never a time when my life here sucked. I’ve had moments of weakness.There are days that I feel the huge disadvantage of living in a country where I cannot communicate properly. You cannot imagine the feeling of not being able to access through the school portal because it’s in Hanggul, or the feeling whenever I cannot order a pizza for delivery. Sometimes I ask help from a middle school student because all the buttons on the laundry machine is in Korean. It’s disheartening to live like this, like a handicap, and sometimes it just gets to me, inside me. There are days that I feel just like floating in a sea of gibberish, wanting to understand but sadly I cannot. I want to make a lot of friends here but sometimes I feel that I will never be one of them. I’m always “the” foreigner. Always an outcast. Someone who can never understand.
Oh well, there will be better days. Cheer up.