"A simple plot... But I know one day, good things are coming our way.."
-Up With The Birds, Coldplay
Pause my life for five days. Do all the things I can't do on normal days. A chance to zone out and appreciate my life. Eat a lot, go to new places, reflect, get closer to nature and meet new people. Who knows, maybe when I come back I look like Julia Roberts already.
“We search for happiness everywhere, but we are like Tolstoy's fabled beggar who spent his life sitting on a pot of gold, under him the whole time. Your treasure--your perfection--is within you already. But to claim it, you must leave the buy commotion of the mind and abandon the desires of the ego and enter into the silence of the heart.”
I was so saturated, tired and empty yesterday when I met up with my best friends. It was a day that I have been looking forward to for so many weeks already and finally it happened. The weather was also kind to me: bright and sunny without any hint of clouds but with a slight breeze to relieve the humid. I don't usually appreciate those small things but given my current situation, I'd rejoice for even a sight of Matteo Guidicelli at Jamba Juice (which actually happened). Good weather plus tired soul plus this song playing on the way = perfect music video-ish moment.
It's not that I'm in a state of torture or anything, but where most of us right now isn't paradise either. Hmm, marathon. That's how I'd like to call it. Very long and tiring; pushing us to the limits but when we're done, it's very much fulfilling. Even though I'm complaining from time to time, with all of the stuff and VIRTUES that I'm learning from this marathon, I wouldn't trade it for a walk in the park. It's amazing how we can appreciate these things because of maturity, no?
This song is just so fitting for me in all the vague reasons. Being successful in life, having been gone to beautiful places but realized she have not lived for herself at all. I know, it's for moms and successful and busy people but I can relate to it I don't know why. Okay, maybe because of my constant struggle to fulfill my good daughter duties that I realized I forgot to give myself what I want. That I have never experienced that exhilarating, i'd-cross-this-off-my-bucket-list level of happiness for myself gave me a pang of regret.
I don't want to be this song. 30 years from now, when I look back on my life, I don't want to be disappointed with what I will see. I will pursue my paradise.
I don't want to be this song. 30 years from now, when I look back on my life, I don't want to be disappointed with what I will see. I will pursue my paradise.
It's no secret that Miranda Kerr is my favorite VS Angel. I just love everything about her. Her features are a lot less fierce than other VS models (they werqqq it!) and I think that's why she's a standout. She exudes that sweet, not intimidating, girl-next-door vibe that most models do not have. Because nowadays long legs, skinny body, high cheekbones and pouty cheeks = Vogue model. I don't mind that, but sometimes they're becoming like Asians to me: I can't distinguish them anymore haha. That's why seeing Miranda Kerr at the VS Fashion show is like a breath of fresh air. Bottom line? I'm excited for the full show because of her. Haha.
I start my day at the break of dawn and as I zip my first cup of coffee, I have this view in front of me. It's priceless.
My eye bags are already a face fixture for me ever since July, but I just noticed that it's getting worse. Actually my whole face is getting worse. A lot of people have been pointing out the loss of fat in my cheeks and my bloodshot eyes all the time. Gentle way of saying "oh dear what happened to you?" And yeah I, too, have been noticing that I'm losing weight in a gaunt way. And don't look at me like that, I'm eating a lot. And I sleep for 6-7 hours daily.
Maybe I'm just tired. Damn I hate to be tired already, it's just Monday for crying out loud.
