Before the "Next Time"

Time passes us so fast that we barely notice what it lends to us for that short while. Time brings along moments. Moments bring feelings. Time allows us to appreciate it. Sadly, we’ve got a little of it to realize every moment of our lives. That’s why we’re stuck in place. We get very little from our experiences so we don’t want to move on yet. We haven’t felt the fulfillment.

Why there are many immature adults.Why the rich are still greedy. Why the pretty are still insecure. Why the smart still feels dumb.

Why we are unhappy. And why we feel empty.

"People haven't found the meaning of their lives, so they're running all the time looking for it. They think the next car, the next house, the next job. They find those things empty too, and they keep running."
–Morrie Schwartz

Let’s live one day at a time. Let’s appreciate every moment of our lives-- every time someone greets us in the morning, every time a friend smiles at us, each meal time that we have food on our plates, every time we are safe and unharmed, every time our heart still beats for dear life. Everything happens for the good: failures, disappointments, frustrations, tears, sorrow. Even those, we have to appreciate and grasp what it means to our lives.

“If you can concentrate always on the present, you'll be a happy man. You'll see that there is life in the desert, that there are stars in the heavens...Life will be a party for you ,a grand festival, because life is the moment we're living right now."
-The Alchemist

Time comes and leaves us as quickly as the blink of our eyes. Let’s value every moment it’s still on our hands, so that when it leaves us behind, we are happy to move forward with it. That way, we won’t feel bitter and say “Life sucks!” like the emo kids in town. We won’t feel like our lives are just good-for-nothing.

Time leaves us behind. The moments and the feelings leave with it too. But the lessons we have learned from it will forever be ours... then here comes the “next time”...

"In three words,
I can sum up everything I've learned about life....
it goes on...

-Robert Frost

Do re mi fa so la ti do

A cute and light movie. Hehe. Like it. Suits my mood. The guy is soooooo cute and so bait. Hay. When will I ever meet someone like the guys in my fantasies? Well. Fantasies are just fantasies.

Signed up in Tumblr. I like it there. It's so neat, simple and fast. It's perfect for hosting a blog for just random posts. Hehe.

New layout. I just chose from the available templates in Blogger. I don't really like it. But I don't like my old layout. But(so many but's hehe) I am kinda lazy and tired to make one too. Meebe after the prelims.

I'll be very busy in the next two weeks. The prelims is moved to thurs-sat then tues-wed of the following week. They spreaded it all over January. Haha. :P

EDIT:
I saw Valerie(from PBB Teens) in our building last Thursday. We were near the restroom when we saw her talking to her friend. She. is. so. pretty. Her face is far from what we see on tv. She's waaaaay prettier! Her lips is not the very full one like when she's on tv. Her face is smaller too! She's really like a doll. Now I understand why a lot of the PBB boys fancy her.

I saw Jong too!! Nothing has changed. Haha. He's still the kenkoy guy I used to know. He's going back to Sweden this Sunday. :( But atleast I had the chance to meet him before he leaves again. I missed that nigga! Oh and btw, his skin tone lightened (a bit. just a little bit) Maybe you won't notice it if you didn't know that he stayed somewhere cold for the past months. Hehe. I told him to show up to me on his 10th visit in the RP and we'll compare our colors again.

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Nyt. See ya.
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I.AM.FRUSTRATED

Right now. Sigh.

We just had our quiz3 in Calculus. It's not hard. Just right. But I don't know what happened to me. Ten points din ang pwedeng mawala sa kn :(( I got confused in writing the //du. Gosh. I was really torn into two about that du. Argh. Plus the fact that we were just given a very small space for scratch!! VERY SMALL. It's not enough. And the time was not enough too. I thank God that I finished everything and I was sure of what I was doing, but not of my answers, though. I mean, with the very very limited time, I answered just swiftly. It was not the "slowly but surely" way of doing so. Hay. I really get frustrated and depressed whenever I can't review my answers on a test, and whenever I lack time to do it slowly and surely. Sigh.

But actually, I shan't be the one depressed and vacillated bout that. My problem is minor compared to my other classmates. Some of them weren't able to do four or five items which is worth 9 points each. Aww. But my feelings won't be lifted by others' mistakes. That's harsh. It's myself that I am disappointed to. I reviewed for that quiz for several days!! I stayed up late, as late as 12am everyday just to prepare for that quiz!! Last night, I even said to myself that this is the quiz that I am most prepared to take counting the days I studied for it. But then here I am, siphoning out my frustrations. Sigh.

I pray that my grade will range from 80-90/ 100. But a grade between 75-80 is so so so much okay. Super.

I studied very very hard for this quiz, and I know that God always gives what we deserve. Sowing and Reaping. I trust Him that He will give me the grade that I deserve. And I know that I deserve way more than a pass.


02/22/09
EDIT: WAAAA!! 88/100 ako!!!! Praise God!! (bigbigbiggrin)

It's already 1am, yet I am still wide awake. I'm definitely going to miss this one, though I know that school's still going to keep me awake at the dead of the night once this vacation is officially over. But we, students, perfectly know how utterly different it will be.

Staying awake at this time because I got a very long sleep this morning is so much better than keeping my eyes from shutting because I lack sleep due to school works.

It's feels a lot more better that the reason I stay awake by this time is because I have nothing else to do, than to remember all the things I still haven't finished studying; the thing which always keeps me awake at midnight.

Tell me which one's more comforting idea? Drinking milk for you to, atlast, sleep or drinking coffee as you can't afford to doze off while studying? I'd choose the former.

You could spot me reading books till 2 in the morning every night this vacation. But I wasn't reading College Physics, or Integral Calculus. I was holding a Sparks's, Coelho's or a Rowling's. The latter couldn't have looked less dull.

And the fact that I could sleep in for hours till my mom wakes me up for lunch is the best thing missing whenever I stay up late for Physics or Calculus. I couldn't imagine the struggle. It's always hardest to wake up early on the chilling dawns of January. I don't mind preferring back pain and body sore due to over sleep over the headache and dizziness due to the lack of.

It is the six-letter word that widens the gap and strikes the huge difference -- STRESS. It's the thing that hibernates whenever we are on vacation and strikes back with full force as soon as school piles us up with quizzes and exams. He even brings his bestfriend -- PRESSURE. I missed everything about school but them. They are the two pals that I never, and will never, miss. But I must say that they shouldn't hold their grudges, coz whatever they do they won't beat me. I'm tough enough to handle stress and pressure, and I can do a lot better than cracking up.

Oh well, I'd say I have to say good bye to my midnight detours on sites for now. For the mean time, I am going to face the school world again; prepare for our prelims and the whole lot. Then, voila, I won't even notice that the sem's over again. So I think I probably shouldn’t be saying goodbye. I’d say..



See you in a few!

Somewhere between 08 and 09...

I am saying farewell to a year that had been good to me. A year full of fun, new experiences, knowledge, and love. :)

The year when I was taught how to love without expecting something in return, how to laugh amidst trials, how to find time to be happy while being VERY busy, how to love my friends more and how to be with them when they need someone who would listen.

The year when I learned that success is something achieved along the journey; that it is every bit of contentment and appreciation for every good thing that is happening to you, when I learned that Physics is something that is really a trial to me, and that time is something I make, not something I find.

It strengthened my faith in God, and my relationship with Him.

This year, I have no new resolution. But instead, I made this conviction, that this year, I'll do it better. It's just simple, but it says everything that I have to do in my life, my studies, and my relationship.

I look forward for a better year. I am not expecting anything, but I know that whatever's in store for me this year, it will be for my betterment. Whatever and whoever will come to my life this year will be something that I will again treasure at the end of '09.

I surrender this year to the Lord. I know that by His grace, I will stand strong to face this year. I am not able without Him.

As I turn off my computer, hit the sheets and go to sleep, I greet you a happy, blessed and abundant new year!! God is with us!


love,
Heidy