2011: Looking Back and Forward.

Last day of the year. I just watched a pretty good movie; think I'm going to spend the remaining hours watching some more. I just can't wait for 2011 to be over.  

looking back:

2011 was as overwhelming as the amount of pictures in front of you. It was a year which I can say gave me a taste of everything -- experiences, friends, feelings and memories -- all of which I am thankful for. Honestly, I wouldn't feel bad about 2011 had I been prepared and briefed about all that was to come. But I guess that's life. You don't see half the things coming your way.

things that faltered:

Time management. I was not satisfied with the amount of work I exerted for the past year and I blame it on my poor time management skills. I could've achieved better had I utilized more of my time instead of lurking on Facebook, or slacking... or whatever. Too much time was wasted this year. 

Emotional stability. I am now an adult. It's not 2006 anymore where all the problems I face are project deadlines and my cluttered room. I got so overwhelmed with these new emotions that ate up all of me. I have to be stronger from now on.

Saving money. Cheesus. I was not able to save a single dime this year. Whenever I manage to save up at least two thousand pesos I rush to the mall and spend it. And then I'd go running to the ATM to get some more money. WTF. I really need to grow up and stop spending.


Social Awareness. I kinda blame it to our TV-less dorm. Everyone's working on how to help the victims of typhoon Sendong and I was like "when did that happen?" I was not proud of my ignorance. I really promise to be more aware of what's happening around me and go out of my zone. 

Spiritual Life. I rarely went to Church this year. Rarely read the Bible. Rarely had a focused devotion. And what did I gain? Nothing. I just lost myself and a lot of things didn't go my way because I was so lost. 

looking forward:

2012 has a lot of awesome things in stored for me: Hell months that are January, February and March, Graduation, six months board exam review, the actual licensure exam and the gateway opens to the new chapter of my life. If I got overwhelmed by 2011, then I probably didn't hear 2012 coming. I seriously need to work on my emotional stability if I want to accomplish all of these in the coming year. 

KEEP CALM AND JUST FOCUS. 

That's my personal goal for 2012. Frankly, that is what I will need this year. Series of exams that will define my future are coming my way. A very tall obstacle is waiting for me as the new year starts and I really need to give it my everything if I want to have a happy March and an "ENGR." before my name by December.  

GPOYW

Demmet, Lomo.

The Mentor

I never wanted to arrange the batch's Fieldtrip but this man behind me had some clever ploy or whatsoever that brought me into the committee unknowingly. I was like.... wait lang? Bawal na kong umatras? Heh. Oh well. It was definitely the most difficult school task that I had to accomplish and it's really a big thanks to my teammates and mentors that we delivered it. Can't say I had fun arranging it, but the beach was beautiful and got me a tanline. Good na 'ko dun. 

Revolution Amplified

Study hard. Study harder. But party once a little while.

Always keep your head high because there are people who would kill to see it fall.

From Facebook:

In life, there are lots of negative people watching your next move, desperately waiting for you to fail and worst even praying for you to give up. Just dont mind them. Let them be. It just doubles the fun of living and surviving. Let's keep in mind that failures and problems are not something we should be scared of. KEEP THAT HEAD UP AND CONTINUE DOING GOD'S WILL BECAUSE AS LONG AS HE IS WITH YOU, blessings will come your way and good things always prevail.

I have been blessed to be surrounded by awesome people for as long as I can remember. I do not remember having encountered a lot of "haters" or enemies during my entire teenage life. Prolly one or two? But it was very insignificant and short-lived; it did not even cost me a bad day. Maybe the fact that I don't give a damn about negative stuffs actually helped me on those times. I've got this "whatever, you bitch" attitude whenever someone calls me this and that. I always give them the liberty of venting out their negatives on me and I just shrug it off. Not worth my time.

But nowadays, I'm different. I feel so sensitive to what people say towards me. I don't know why :/ I'm at a situation that my 'Whatever' attitude SHOULD help but now that I need it, it's gone hiding. Fck.

I have learned that the best time to buy strength and patience is when I am weak and angry. So I'm buying a sack of strength and two and a half tons of patience. I pray that I've got enough stock to last me til the last day of 2011. Ughhh. Save me.