Naisip ko lang.

Ilang ulit na ba ko pinanghinaan ng loob? Ilang ulit na ba ko muntikan ng sumuko? Sa totoo lang hindi ko na matandaan. Pero eto pa din naman ako, buhay pa -- at masaya. Kahit naman anong pagdaanan ko, kahit kailan di naman Niya ko iniwan. Hndi naman titigil ang mundo para makiramay sa problema ko. Di rin naman ako sasaya kung susuko ako. Saglit lang naman ang buhay dito. Saglit lang magtitiis. Saglit lang sasaya. Naisip ko lang, bakit ko pa sasayangin yung saglit na meron ako?

Bringing back '07

Nostalgia's powerful. It's all over me right now! I'm currently listening to the songs that I hadn't listened to since high school. Hopeless Love, If We Fall in Love, Brighter, Firewater.. so high school, so 2007, so senior. Right? Sigh. Sometimes I like this nostalgic feeling, and sometimes I don't. Well maybe it depends what memories it brings you back. Hehe. I think mine's bittersweet. :P

This summer is a carnival ride for me--emotionally. There are days or even weeks that it makes me feel so lonely. At times it makes me feel blissful and all up for smiles. But there are moments, like now, that it's having me this craving for emotions. I don't know. You'd call that longing and emptiness? Probably.

Oh well. Summer's nearing its end anyway and I'll be leaving home soon. I'll be staying in the dorm, a thing I barely have no idea how to survive. But then, I'll save these frets and fears til I move. Still want to enjoy my hard-earned vacation. :)

P.S. Yeah, I deleted my previous post because I think it's too much a trash for you guys to read. It's so nonsense. Hehe.

Plus this: I'm eyeing this schedule for next sem! It's the best among all four scheds! I'm praying to get a slot with Jhuli & the rest this coming Wednesday.

You know..

When it's really really painful, that's the time I can't talk about it. I am usually comfortable sharing my problems to my close friends or to my mom but then I realized that when it's damn out-and-out painful, I can't even say nor write it. Oh well, that's too bad.

On the other hand. Hey, did you guys watch the Pacquiao-Hatton fight? Oh, I know you did. Hehe. It's too short! I want more action! Too bad, Pacquiao's so strong and Hatton's too weak. :P

Parang ang dami kong pwedeng gawin pero hindi ko alam kung ano uunahin. Haha. I've read Angels and Demons just recently and I can say that I'm really impressed with the novel. Liked it! I'm reading Rage of Angels by Sidney Sheldon now. But I'm making very little progress because I watch movies and surf the net too. BUSY. Hihi.

P.S. Check me out on twitter :D

He's all I've got..

I'm going through a hard time at the moment. There are times that all I can do is cry, and those times are really often. I don't know what to do. I'm scared. People might see me as one tough person, but there are some fragile points in my life and this is one of them. It's one thing that I can't even say to anyone.

For months, I go home, broken and weak, and all I can do is cry. I am awake in the middle of the night, thinking about it, seeing that all I can do is pray. I am very weak right now. I am alone in this.

There are a lot of times that I tend to to forget Him, forget His promise, forget His power. I failed and lost my faith. That's how fragile I am right now. But if I'm going to lose my faith on Him, who else can I depend on? Who else can I believe? People have already failed me.

So I give up.
I give up on going through this alone and not letting God help me.
I surrender.
I surrender everything to Him.
I am crying.
I am crying out to Jesus.
He'll never leave me on this. I trust Him.
Right now in this battle, He's all I've got... He's all I've got... I surrender.

You gave Your life for me. By Your sacrifice, I am saved. THANK YOU LORD. For the life, for the love, for everything. I will praise You forever.

"When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less"

Summer Kind of Wonderful

Ghel's family invited Jei and I for an overnight stay in La Virginia Resort in Lipa, Batangas last week. I was really skeptical if my parents will allow me there. I guess they considered the fact that I'm not just going with some friends, but with Ghel's family too so they allowed me. It was my first overnight plus out-of-town swimming experience. As in first! Haha.

The place is really beautiful!!! We spent more time taking pictures with the scenery rather than swimming. Haha. Look at our pictures, parang napilitan lang kami magswimming. Haha.

Then we went to Mt. Malarayat Golf and Country Club (Tita Gina's officemate toured us there) which is really classy and beautiful! Orchard, panis!! Haha. Ganda talaga. Then Tita's officemate took us in their Casa de Segunda. The moment we saw the ancient house, I was just kidding when I said that we're off for an educational trip, but it turned out that I was true. The house was the house of Segunda Katigbak, Rizal's first love. Shocking, right.

I am so proud of my shots. They are really m-shots! Haha. Ghel and Jei had trouble choosing what pictures to upload in their Facebook and Friendster accounts, coz you know, my shots are really beautiful. Hahaha. Kidding.

Lezz do thiz again! ;)